best in my life

Have you ever thought of the past that had made you sad or deeply hurt? Well,i did.Just this morning when I woke up,I sat at the end of my bed thinking what would my life be if my dad was still here.I miss those times where he would turn off the television and told me to go study.I would just grumble to him and I had to read those books all afternoon.But now,it finally paid of to me.On the day he went away,I did not know exactly what was going on until I saw him lying on the hospital bed breathless and what more when he is already lifeless.My mother hugged him close and was crying.At that very moment I know that I had to see my other friends with their dad and me without mine.It was heartbreaking at that time.On the day his coffin was closed,I cried like I never cried before.It was worse when he was then burried.All the leaves fell down when we lit the candles at the cemetery.My cousin told me to no be sad.But,how can I not be sad after losing my dad who I loved.On my tenth birthday,I wished he was with me that time.On my eleventh birthday,I still did.And I did the same on my 12th birthday.Now on my thirteenth birthday,could I still wish the same thing or just let go because now i had grown and know that he is with god?
I myself can't seem to find the answer in my heart.All I can possibly want now is that m mother will stay with me till I achieved the best in life because I want her to see it and be with me that time.Without my dad,my mom had to work her sweat out to help me get the best things that she could get for me.How can I ever repay her if me myself can't seem to make her proud? But all I want is also to see my mother happy and proud of me as my dad would want that for me too.Eventhough I may not live the wealthy life,I am sure that my parents did the best for me in life.
"every time the sun rises,
I know it is a new beginning in life,
and everytime the sun sets,
I know another dy in life has ended."

********************i miss him*******************

life is a journey

Some may say life is easy but for me it is not.You have to overcome all your biggest fear to move on or to survive.I may not be a girl living a dream life although i may have a big smile on my face.Although you are living the saddest day of your life,make sure live it with a smile.Because it shows that you are not a coward and it proves that you could carry the trials.It may seem that it is better to live without any troubles along the way,but what is life without it? Overcoming your troubles make you strong and it makes you braver in heart.Maybe today you lift up yourself and the next day you find yourself in trouble,all i can say is keep holding on because you can make it through.Life can be tiring or stressful to you but sometimes you just want to shout to the skies and oceans that you are thankful to live each day.god created life for you to live but not to enjoy it full without overcoming your fear.Just live life as it is because somehow you will discover the true meaning of it.

"live your life as it is,
overcome your fears,
a light shall be shined,
unto your path someday,somehow,someway....."

Losing a friend.

Losing a FRIEND is the worst thing you could imagine happening to you. Its like eating melted ice cream. A friend that you had maybe kept for a day,a week,a month or more..And the reason for him/her to throw you is being asked by their partner/mate.That whats making you to have this angry but sad and hurting.And because of that,you would be sitting in your room alone crying and listening to sad songs..what more if you are looking at his/her picture..It will be so hurtful that you had a thought that you want to die..The friend that you always looked up at,respect and maybe even loved..but you see,you should just forget the past because life must go on with or without the one you love because someday you will get a thought that its better to let him/her go because it only makes your life miserable..
"a friend is a person you lean on,
a friend is a person you keep,
but some friends,
just fly away like dandelion"